Sunday? Really?

Oi. My apartment is SUCH a mess. B and I just returned from WI for yet another wedding - this time an old college friend - and left the place in quite a bit of disarray yesterday. He had to run off to a rehearsal as soon as we got home (I had to drop him off, actually), leaving me to fend off the mess on my own. And after the rehearsal, he'll be heading over to a friend's house to watch the Patriots game. "Why don't you come over with me and we can watch it together?" he said. "Because I have no interest in watching," I replied. "Don't you have any interest in me??" Man! He's honed guilt-trips better than any woman I know. ; ) (Love you, honey!) But I MUST clean, and truth be told I get more done when he's not here anyway. Cleaning has always been a form of relaxation for me, believe it or not. And when I'm done I'll glory in my triumph over chaos. Our apartment is so darn cute and cozy when clean...we've lately been trying to be neater people, so we could spend more time enjoying the place rather than cleaning it. This lasted 5 out of 7 days...I guess that's a start.

I MUST also work out tonight. I engorged myself over the weekend, pretty much ruining all my fabulous weight-loss progress from the week before. I'm very afraid to be weighed this week!! But I have realized that I need to allow for some natural give and take. I must not punish myself for mistakes like these, but learn from them, learn how to better deal with wedding food and cake and alcohol and long car rides with Doritos. (I don't even really like Doritos!!!!) I will just keep going, work out more, eat better this week, and be ready for the next challenge. That I can say that without freaking out, without totally giving up on the whole thing is proof that I've really changed my outlook on my weight-loss efforts and my overall attitude towards my health. But there is something built into the WW program that prevents that kind of immediate self-destruction. It's a process, not instant make-over. It's the rest of my life, not my life already lived! No, I'm far too committed, far to invested in this now....! So this is a new week, and I'll recover.

Off to clean, will probably return later...